Yesterday & Today
Out of all the things in this world. The stuff that makes you sad, you just want to cry in the corner all day long. Or the things that make you mad, you get so pissed about someone, you start to think, "Hmm... prison doesn't seem so bad." But especially the happy things. The reasons why we smile. The things in our lives that make all the other bullshit we experience bearable because we have this special thing to cheer us up...Why is it for some reason these are things that always come to an end? When it's the crap we wish to depart with, after the dust has settled, you look around and the only thing still there is... yup. That big pile of crap!
I guess you're wondering where this new found bitterness is coming from. And don't worry it's not new. It's just something I've tried not to think about lately. But basically, I saw the end to something that was special to me.
Most of you have been in my car so you know what I'm harping about. It's about a band called Do As Infinity. Last night, I saw their final concert. The damn thing made me all sad now.
It's hard to believe it's been this long, but I've been following this band closely for about four years now. They're music initially took away this gloomy cloud that was hovering over my head for many years. And after that cloud had passed the music continued to make me happy.
I've never found a group who's music I've loved this much. Which is why I'm guessing it has to come to an end. Because what kind of good story doesn't have an ending? It's like to truly appreciate something you have to watch it go through it's life cycle.
So I'm doing my best not to hate. The music, although there will never be anything new, will always be close to me.
posted by Ghetto FOBulous @ 9:27 AM
4 Comments:
I can't say it was ever over a band, but I know what it's like to lose something that others only regarded as mere entertainment. It's like you say, it may be only for happiness, but the kind of happiness you receive from that one thing isn't just momentary; it really does last long after the song or the show is over. It's the kind of happiness that delves deep into your soul.
DAI will be missed by you and, to some extent, by me as well.
There's no reason why it had to be this way but that's exactly the sense I got, too, that DAI had to end. No way did it have to be this way though... even so it happened.
I'm much more a newb fan but I guess I feel in the same boat, trying not get mad/sad. But there are lots of reminders of how attached I've truly become, and there will be more most likely...
/sympathy
(davus0)
Come to think of it, it feels so much like the end of a love story....It hurts, the object of your affection is still around (here, the songs, the images), but no matter what, there is nothin you can do to make things work together again...
Feelings linger, and days pass with you bearing that bitterness, each mornings getting you to realize it's over.
Seems that life has its funny way to have us remember that nothing lasts forever, at least in tangible facts. There is only one things life cannot alter, nor steal away from you: the happiness you feel when you listen to that music you love so much. Somehow the end of the band, instead of having you tiring away from it, makes it eternal.
As any love stories that meant something in our lives, after the bitterness is gone, it leaves a gentle feeling around. You know that something is lost for certain, but its memories will be part of you forever.
I'm sorry about your loss. But at least you have your memories to hold on to.
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